Am I ready?

I feel at ease sharing my life with you. There’s something about being part of the Alabastron nest; it’s home. I bumped into an old friend from primary school who I have not seen in twelve years. In primary school he was just some other guy. But when I met him and had a mini catch up, it just felt good. I know, take it one step at a time…

I was talking to my best friend about dating and marriage prior to meeting my ex-classmate. I feel that for now, I am not ready yet, to give of myself in a relationship. Well I guess since I am meeting with him to catch up further, I’ll just take it from there. I was just jumping the gun and putting pressure on myself for nothing. I will manage my expectations, not write any scripts and of course, I shall have a pure intention when I catch up with him.

Well that was more like a verbal evaluation and rationalization. I will admit that at times I do feel lonely which is normal. It’s at these moments of loneliness that I remind myself how cool Jesus is and how I need to hang out with him. That is how I deal with the loneliness. Maybe you do it different I’d like to hear what you do.

But I thank God that I can actually consider dating now. I can remember the stories and belief system that I had created and allowed to control my life. I did not allow myself to acknowledge such emotions. I thank God that he has renewed me. I believe God’s continual renewal of my mind and my life is for a reason. I’ll let God work and I’ll follow his lead.